What are my words really saying??
Some of the things I say or think about myself.
- My thighs are too big.
- My stomach is getting rounder.
- I wish I was 10 lbs lighter.
- I wish I was the size I was when I got married.
- I wish I was as the size of "those" girls.
Hmmm. So, what do these words really mean? I think most of my problem is that I hold myself to certain "standards" of beauty. And, honestly, it's not just a "Hollywood standard of beauty," as Rosie suggests in her book. It's really just standards that I've come up with. I look at women who have gained the attention of certain people and feel a certain jealousy because I don't feel I share the same qualities, whether it be my weight or general appearance. Sometimes these women are famous starlets and sometimes they're just regular women that I meet in passing or through someone else.
I'm pretty sure I'm not the only woman who has come up with her own standards of beauty. And I'm pretty sure I'm not the only woman who can't reach her own standards of beauty. I need to re-evaluate my standards. The standards in my brain right now are not healthy standards for ME.
And, for the record, Beulah has only reared her ugly head about 3 times. Not bad!
I have to tell you s that once I realized that EVERYONE wants something they can't have (features of others- even the ones we all think are perfect) It happened to me 2 or 3 years ago at the beach with friends. I was told I had a "great rack" by a friend who is a size 4 and tan and beautiful and she told ME she wished she had my curves.
ReplyDeleteThat made me realize that every woman goes through this and as soon as we embrace the things about us that we LOVE then its like our self awareness and confidence multiplies by 100%.
You have a smile that I envy, a tiny waist, and hair that can be both curly and straight and I wish I had that!
you're so right, andie. we all go through it! it's hard to do, but we do need to embrace what we've been given.
ReplyDeleteWell said Andie!
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